"A Muslim continues to remain under trial in respect of his life, property & offspring until he faces Allāh with no sin record." [Tirmidhi]
one might hate something yet in reality it is harmful for him. or may covet something, yet in reality it is not good or beneficial for him.
When you feel alone and have no one to talk to, connect with Allah. That line is never busy and there’s always an answer that soothes the heart.